Decisions will be made tomorrow

Caleb will be discharged TOMORROW!!! Yes, our big ol 4 1/2lb boy is going to be discharged TOMORROW!!

Case workers have pressed the birth mom needs to make a decision TOMORROW. She needs to choose to parent or choose to go through with the adoption plan.

PRAY PRAY PRAY! Pray that she chooses adoption, it would really be the best thing for Caleb.

Calling all PRAYers

We need some prayers!!! Big prayers. Prayers that move mountain prayers.

Why?

Because Caleb is going to be released from the hospital this week, possibly Monday and birth mom has not made a decision.

What you can pray for:
-Pray that the social contacts the birth mom before the hospital on Monday
-Pray that we can get in touch with the birth mom's social worker on Sunday
-Pray that the birth mom would choose adoption and sign papers before Caleb is released
-Pray for a miracle and for God to be glorified.

faith.

The Bible says "if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Mt. 17:20

Why is it then that my faith has never been stronger and I feel like not even a grain of sand is moving? Oh Lord, increase my faith.

I know that the greatest impact of prayer is not the answers that we get, but drawing nearer to the Lord. I have never been more intimate with Him. I have never prayed more. I have never had more faith.

And yet......I wait.....
............I wait.................
........... I wait.........................

1 Month

Dear Caleb,

Today you are 1 month old! Can you believe it? I am so sorry that your whole first month of life has been in the NICU. Not a fun place, huh? At least you have some amazing nurses. I am sorry that we are not able to visit you on your 1 one month. We are working on that. It might be to your advantage that I am not there. I was thinking of bringing a birthday hat and celebrating with you. At least you won't be embarrassed :)

You have had quite the month sir. I just got off the phone with the NICU, you are are taking all of your meals from a bottle now, and are weighing 4 lbs and 6.5 ounces. Way to go baby boy!! You passed your hearing test and are doing so well. We are so proud of you.

We love you more than you will ever know. I hope the nurses spoil you today!!

today

I am found:

somewhere between hope and despair
somewhere between waiting and going
somewhere between wanting friends around and wanting to be alone
somewhere between wanting to overeat and wanting to overexercise
somewhere between lost and found
somewhere between wanting to work and wanting to quit
somewhere between scrubbing the house room by room and letting the mess pile up
somewhere between wanting my prayers answered and knowing that prayer in and of itself is not about getting answers

I am found here.

Not quite the news we have been waiting for

The mantra in our house seems to be "no news is good news." When we have "no news" at least it means that there is still hope that we can adopt Baby Caleb.

Birth mom is stuck between a rock and a hard place right now. Intellectually she knows that adoption would be the best decision for her and for Caleb, but how does a mom go through that? Emotionally she is having a very hard time accepting it all.

Her case worker is putting some pressure on her to make a decision in the next two weeks, when we believe that Caleb will be released from the hospital.

Many of you have had things to say about the birth mom. Some have said that she is an unfit parent, irresponsible and playing the system. Others have stood up for her, some to a fault. Tonight, Jon and I are standing with her, not knowing how she is feeling, nor the emotions she is going through....AND.....feeling that through prayer that we should pray that the adoption goes through.

Here we are....standing with her, empathizing with her, praying for her, not knowing her pain, and yet....we are praying that she chooses to go through with the adoption.
It is a messy situation....

Because the papers were pulled from the birth mother's county and to refile paperwork in our county....and because she never signed those papers.....we currently cannot go to the hospital. We are working on that....we desperately want to hold that boy in our arms again.

What can you do?

-Fast with us (for a day, or periods of a day)
-Pray for the birth mom. Pray that she makes the best decision for Caleb, that she makes decisions based on facts and not emotions
-Pray for Caleb's health.
-Pray for us, that we would not give up the hope that God has given us
-Pray that she chooses adoption, not as a selfish request, but something we believe God is opening the door too
-Pray for some legal issues that she is going through

Hoping and Praying and Praying and Hoping

Birth mom canceled her appointment today.....so tomorrow (Tuesday) at 12:30p she should be meeting with her case worker to discuss parenting or adoption:)

This is what we know:
-She is still desiring adoption, but the birth father is giving her pressure
-She has not visited Caleb since last Tuesday
-Caleb weighs 4.6lbs and is eating by a bottle